I once heard a performer say "when I am sad, I write songs, when I am happy -- I play golf."
For many, creativity can be a tool to help us deal with negative and unhappy feelings. Sometimes they become so entangled together, that an artist can feel overwhelmed. When I was a teenager -- it was a horrible time in my life. My emotions were negative and my thinking was muddled. I was melancholy and spaced-out at school and crabby, weepy and disrespectful at home. My interior life was scary. I held high expectations on myself and others. I failed my own tests and no one else passed either. I was self-destructive and alone, and so very unhappy. I did find a measure of peace in making art, although so much of my subject matter and feelings expressed came from an unhappy place. Later in my twenties, I went back to school to study "Fine Art", I already had a "commercial art" degree, but I thought the "purity" of fine art would somehow be more heroic and more important. Things emotionally were still messy, but a bit better. The problem came with finding subject matter for my canvases. My interior self was so unpleasant and unhappy, spending time trying to communicate from that place got harder and harder. I could feel myself wanting to leave that dark place, and for a long, long time I left painting behind with it.